This CD is my life.

Songs for You, Truths for Me
James Morrison

So while in Davis last year in November. We took a tour around the town, we shortly realized how little there is to do there, especially if all you do is shop. Since the shopping was horrible, none of us could prove we were 18 because we didn't have our ID's on us so we couldn't see a rated R film, and it was my birthday earlier that month so I had money to spend. We decided to go to the CD store and buy some Audio CD's. I know right, who buys those anymore? It's all about the downloads. But to be honest it was refreshing to buy something that we totally lost our respect and interest for. Not knowing that James Morrison nor Brett Dennon had new CD's. I just happened to be at the right place at the right time. With that being said, I left that CD store with about four CD's. Now I've always been a fan of James Morrison, and his first CD blew me away. It was so amazing, I introduced most of my friends to his music. So as a fan I was expecting a CD like the first, something that would blow me away. After listening to it for a while when I got home, I wasn't really as intrigued as I thought I would be. With that being said, I rarely listened to it. But as time went on, with all of my relationship issues and mass confusion with my emotions. I began to connect with him. This CD explains all of my feelings and hardships that have gone along with my emotions. James Morrison's Songs for You, Truth for Me, captures every single emotion that I feel. He really has a way of getting inside and making me feel as if I have a friend within him. There is someone else out there who gets me. Who knows how I feel. It's rare, with such complex feelings, a recording artist is the last person I thought would be able to connect with on such an intense level. Well I will have to highly recommend this CD to anyone. For those who have never heard of James Morrison, nor his music I would be delighted to introduce you to his music. Get ready to be amazed.


Undiscovered
James Morrison

James Morrison Live

Live from Abbey Road
This Boy
One Last Chance
Acoustic
If You Don't Wanna Love Me
Live on T4
Please Don't Stop the Rain

James Morrison Albums Recorded
Undiscovered
Songs for You, Truths for Me

When Love is in The Air

You know, recently I just posted a blog entry about how confused and lost I was in my relationship. Having these conversations with my boyfriend has helped get my feelings out in the air and he knows what I need in a relationship. Though at times I have proven to be a bit to demanding, being that I am a very emotional person. I feel that just recently my true colors have begun to show and he is beginning to see the real me. For most of my life I have been able to control my feelings and have an image of confidence and self assurance. Little did any one know I had many issues. I just hope he is going to be in love with me no matter the situation. He is part of the reason my feelings have started to become so evident.

With all that said. I will have to say that Sunday, July 12, 2009 would have to be one of the best days I have ever spent with my boyfriend. It was a day full of love, excitement, and bonding. When I am spending time with him, I transform into the happiest person ever. So many of my friends have played witness to the change in my behavior when I am around him. I came down to his place in the Valley and wound up hanging out at Target for a while because his whole house was home (there are many issues with that, but that's for another time). But after about 45 minutes I came over and he made me some amazing breakfast burritos. Then we spent quality time for a few hours, and it was the best because it was just him and I. It is so rare as to when we spend time together just alone, and I am so happy when I get the chance because I know that we wont have any distractions. We decide to go on a spontaneous trip to In'n'Out at Universal and get some food. It was the first time that I had In'n'Out Burger in while so it was quite enjoyable. We sat there and we talked and I brought something up that halted the happiness but it didn't last for long.

After lunch we decided to go to Universal City Walk and walk the strip and browse around, and for a while now I have been talking about going to see Brüno. So we passed the theater and on a whim we went to see it. The movie wasn't all I thought it would be. Don't get me wrong it was funny, but it was pretty vulgar and offensive. During the movie we had these amazingly comfortable seats and we sat next to each other. He took my hand and held it throughout the whole movie. I was sitting there thinking, I wish this would last forever. After a debate as to whether we should movie hop or not, we decided not to and to go on a walk down Ventura Blvd. and to our surprise, we wound up running into Rihanna, renown singer and performer. Might I mention how amazing she looked. Her outfit was nothing you would see anyone wearing and her makeup was outrageous. How excited were we? Very! Seems every time we are together someone famous pops out. On our walk we just talked and talked and it never stopped. I couldn't help but be taken back. I realized that he really does love me so much, I felt that our connection couldn't be broken. I have an amazing boyfriend I said to myself.

On my way home, the glee lasted, but I did have those horrible thoughts in my head. I try to ignore them but it's so hard. I hate myself for not ever being completely happy. I won't let myself get happy without thinking of the precautions that come along with it. It's smart, but it takes the fun out life. I think about why he only acts so in love with me when we are alone and no one else is around. Or if the way he was acting was going to last. I wish that the feelings he made me feel yesterday were in my heart all the time, except the heartache I feel sometimes. I don't expect my relationship to be perfect, but I know that once upon a time we were both extremely happy. I don't know why I do this to myself. I need to allow myself to be happy.

Marco, oh Adamo

Lately there have been major marathons of Degrassi: The Next Generation on The N. While away for school I didn't really have the time to catch up but, now that it's summer I swear I have watched every single episode leading up to the new current ones airing now. Well, that's all besides the point, fascinated with Adamo Ruggiero's character, Marco I did some research and found some articles that are really interesting and were pretty touching as well. His story is moving here is some of the article from Frontier magazine.


Did you have any reservations about playing a gay teenager before you came out as gay yourself?

I spoke to a few friends and knew that this was something I was dealing with. When I walked into that audition room I wasn’t sure that the character would be gay until I read the script and saw where it was going. At that point I didn’t quite grasp the magnitude of the character. I was just thinking, “It’s my first show!” When you’re a kid, you’re just thinking about all the exciting things about it. My relationship with playing a gay character was a huge process of over seven or eight years. I accepted myself and put it in to Marco and used him as a way to connect with other young people.

What kind of fan mail did you get from other gay teens?

I got a lot from young gay kids saying they were watching the show. They felt like they had a friend in this completely alone universe they were living in. A lot of them would say they were gay and didn’t know how to come out to their parents, or that they’re gay and would watch Degrassi when their parents weren’t around and Marco was the only gay person they knew. Some kids would say horrible things like they’d been abused or the victims of gay bashing and would ask for my advice. When I was still growing up and insecure about who I was, getting those letters was overwhelming.

How did coming out affect your career?

When I made the conscious decision there was a huge Degrassi screening in New York and we went out to meet fans and my eyes made contact with a kid who just mouthed “thank you” to me and then he was lost in the crowd. I thought, “This was more than a coincidence to me. This is who I am. With these letters and the kids I’m meeting, this is something I have to do.” Most people around me were like “do it” and some people
were asking how it would affect my career. But I just didn’t give a shit. I thought I might never have this voice again. I may not even be cast and be a successful actor so I can’t let this moment slide when it’s most important. Since then my career has been better than ever. I’ve made a movie, I got a kid’s show and I did my first play. I’ve had the best year since declaring my gayness.

Since you've become a role model, do you feel a responsibility to develop projects that honestly depict gay characters?
Definitely. When I read [Make the Yuletide Gay] I completely loved it. It wasn’t just an honest depiction of kids coming out and the pressures they feel, but with a time like this with Prop. 8 and a kid coming out who’s met with a positive reception, I felt it was something we needed to see more of. I was so happy to do this film. I have such huge ambitions. I’ve spoken with the producers of Degrassi and told them “I want Marco to do this...” A lot of people have asked if I’m afraid of being typecast, but I really want the gay roles right now. I want to ride this wave and play a bunch of different characters that are going through different things. It’s
more important than people think.

Frontier Magazine: Adamo Ruggiero

If your interested even more there is a better article I found from last year in Fab Magazine, here it is:

Fab Magazine: Adamo Ruggiero

Old but New

I know I'm all late with the music and all..
But while I was in Hollywood I came across this sign of Mister Sam Sparro. Haven't thought much of him till today while listening to Black and Gold with Joseph. We had this whole discussion about the meaning of the song.
I know I'm a stalker, I looked him up online and everything and searched his Wikipedia. Turns out he is openly gay, and a cute gay might I add. HAHA
Born in Australia and 26 years of age, he is also a Scorpio just like me!!

Well through all my research I finally have a new favorite song called Cottonmouth.

Check it out,

Cottonmouth, Sam Sparro

W magazine

Model Ginnifer Goodwin poses for W magazine, shot by Steven Klein.

I'm in love
For more Pictures Check it out.
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